Which would you like first? The good news? I made it through the double mastectomy without a problem. I made sure to go into it as healthy as possible and spent the last couple weeks juicing, working out and meditating. When they checked my Oxygen levels in my blood prior to surgery they were 99 out of 100. Hell yeah!
The surgery went well and I came out of anesthesia without any major problems. I was lucky enough to have a phenomenal team of surgeons and nurses and never felt wanting for anything. The last couple of days have been a drug induced haze, but I’ve been able to get up and walk around the neighborhood to get the blood flowing. I have the most incredible family and they are doting on me right and left, which I am trying to enjoy.
Ready for the bad news? We got the pathology back today. Looks like there was a large invasive tumor in there the whole time. So while we thought I was barely a stage 1, it now looks like I’m stage 2 possibly 3. We’ll know for sure tomorrow morning when we find out if the cancer has spread to my lymph nodes and the rest of my body. What does this mean? Well, I’ll be starting chemo in a few weeks and possibly hormone therapy as well. The cancer they thought I had before wasn’t life threatening and this one is very much so.
I’ve been in and out of tears for the past few hours, sitting with my husband in shocked disbelief. I know I can do this, I know I can. It will be the hardest thing I’ve ever done, but I don’t have another option. This can’t have been my life. I am not going to die at 32.